It's a Vile thing

Thu, 01 Feb 2007 07:55:28 GMT

It's been a looooong time.

midnight. Can't sleep. Roomates making WAY too much noise in the front room. I start my new job tomorrow. A little scared.

This journal brought back so many memories for me..... and made me want to crave popcorn. haha.

I still have little girl crushes (although, the one I have now is slightly more grown up) and still have no boyfriend. Except now, I'm okay with it.

Still playing music. my guitar, my mandolin, my bass.

Still loving life.

EDIT********I just realized that it is one day of off being exactly 2 years since I've used this journal. crazy.

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 05:52:41 GMT

pictures. in this journal.
You should add my new one.

Seriously.
_queen_ofhearts.
do it.

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 07:20:23 GMT

A new year.
Superb.

I've had this journal for well over a year, and I think it's just about time to move on. I will keep it up, for nostalgias sake, but I am starting a new one just to have clean(er) slate. If you choose to add it, its _queen_ofhearts .

the journal will be friends only, and I am not adding anyone unless they add me first, just to see if anyone is paying attention. No need to message me, or comment if you don't want to, just a simple add will more than suffice.

One can only hope that 2005 is not necessarily better, but maybe a little less trying than 2004.

We will soon find out, I suppose.

Best wishes.
jeseca.

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 05:44:03 GMT

Just out of curiosity...

Do you have a cell phone??

If so, what provider do you use, and how well does it work???

I'm thinking about going to Verizon...

picture, bitches.

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 23:37:11 GMT

so, I posted a picture on myspace.... I'm not sure how to post it here, but thats not important.

http://profiles.myspace.com/users/714419

yeah.

jessalynn.

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 04:42:43 GMT

so. I got myspace.

I already don't like it, but I got talked into it.

Everyone should add me.

bitch.

whitestuddedbelt@hotmail.com

I'm probably moving out in the next few weeks. We put in the application today, and if credit checks out, then we're in like flynn.

No parties, though. That kinda sucks.

I always get really sad when I hang out with people, and they never awknowledge me ever again.

So, I'm sad.

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 06:42:30 GMT

I'm in a room full of people, hanging on one person's breath.
We would all vote him most likely to be loved to death.
I hope he still wants it, but it might remind him of when,
he aimed for the bulls eye and hit it nine times out of ten.
That one time his hand slipped, and I saw the dart sail away.
I don't know where it landed, but I'm guessing between green and gray.
We thought nothing of it, but it still haunts him like a ghost.
With all eyes upon him, except two that matter the most.

He says "Green is the color everyone sees al around me.
Gray is the color I see around her, and she's just a blur."
The more the corwd cheers, the less I can hear
and they don't really care what I play. It might be for her.
But for now it's between green and gray.

We paid and we cheered. Now we're gone and to us that feels right.
But for him every one of those evenings turns into a night.
With another hotel room where he lays awake to pretend
that he's doing fine with his notebook and discman for friends.

He says "Green is the color everyone sees al around me.
Gray is the color I see around her, and she's just a blur."
Night after night what I hear, what I write fills the room
and my head starts to sway. It might be for her,
but for now it's between green and gray.

I want you to love me, he whispers, unable to speak.
And he wonders aloud why feelings so strong make the body so weak.
Then he awoke. Now he's scared to death somebody heard.
If it was you, and you know her, please don't say a word.

Wed, 19 Nov 2003 05:07:04 GMT

From now on, This journal is friends only. I'm not sure why. I just decided it would be cool like that.

Comment if you want to be added.

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